Care Contest: Alex vs. Brett
Lately, I keep hearing the Simple Plan song, "Welcome to my Life" ringing in my ears. To describe the similarity between my feelings and the song, here are some of the words:
You don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left down in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my Life
I'm starting to wonder if either Alex or Brett knows what it feels like to feel unwanted at home, to have plans for suicide, to have a life-changing depression, and to have gone through three lovers. And I wonder if they have even the slightest clue what it feels like to have all those things happen when you're not even 13.
I also worry which of them care more about my scary and unstable position. I think it's Alex, because he so understanding of terrible situations. I'm not so sure Brett would care, because he is rather viotlent and carefree. (To show you how violent he is, he said in Gifted Tuesday that if anyone touched him he would rip their head off.) I think he might enjoy watching suicide. I'll have to wait and see. Only time will tell. Yet it will also bring me pain.
Ciao for Now, from doubtful and searching,
-Jess